consent is not just about sex

Illustration by Karolina Koryl.

I'm particular about some things and people don't understand why

If I say no to you and you continue

Anything

A loss of control that brings me to a place I've been before

With men and yes's and no's

That I didn't say but was too young to say

If you're sat over the covers and I'm under I feel trapped

I become vulnerable

Tied down

Unable to use my physical force to help myself

It's not you

I know you wouldn't hurt me

But I can't let myself be weak again

And now I've developed a habit

Of putting things in front of the door before I sleep

It's a chest of drawers at the moment

But it'll upgrade

My fear always does

I'm not trying to get my own way

If I ask you to stop touching me listen

I'm not trying to be rude

I'm not trying to be anything

I don't live for you but I almost do

When I say get off

Don't look so offended

I'm not letting myself get weak again

I know it's just a hug

I don't live for you

And I can't let myself be vulnerable again

most men can take what they want

And I've had problems with men

And yes's and no's